Another loss

I feel quite good this week. I have managed to lose another 6 pounds. As I get nearer and nearer my goal, it will be harder to lose the pounds. I have to be prepared for this. I need to re-educate myself. But that doesn't help when I feel areally intence craving for a HUGE steak. And I mean HUGE!! Half a cow would suit me right now. I want steak, I need steak.

I hate Christmas

Well, I put 8 pounds back on over Christmas and New Year. But a lot of that is due to the depression. When I get depressed, I eat. Dont care what it is, I eat. So now comes the fun of trying hard to lose that weight again. I am really feeling the down side of having the extra weight back on. I walked up to Highfield yesterday. I struggled to walk back. Before Christmas I could walk there and back wihtout a problem. Okay, my back would ache a little, but nothing too bad. Yesterday, I was out of breath before I even got there! And as for walking back, I thought my back was broken in two. It was so painful. I had to go lie down for a little while. And my back still aches today.

I want to get down to around 14 stone (or, for my dear American and Canadian friends, 196 pounds) As I weigh 17 stone now (14 pounds to the stone) I need to lose around 3 stone (or 42 pounds). Its not impossible, but it IS going to take a lot of work. And with my deporession getting worse again, it is going to be even harder.