Another loss

I feel quite good this week. I have managed to lose another 6 pounds. As I get nearer and nearer my goal, it will be harder to lose the pounds. I have to be prepared for this. I need to re-educate myself. But that doesn't help when I feel areally intence craving for a HUGE steak. And I mean HUGE!! Half a cow would suit me right now. I want steak, I need steak.

I hate Christmas

Well, I put 8 pounds back on over Christmas and New Year. But a lot of that is due to the depression. When I get depressed, I eat. Dont care what it is, I eat. So now comes the fun of trying hard to lose that weight again. I am really feeling the down side of having the extra weight back on. I walked up to Highfield yesterday. I struggled to walk back. Before Christmas I could walk there and back wihtout a problem. Okay, my back would ache a little, but nothing too bad. Yesterday, I was out of breath before I even got there! And as for walking back, I thought my back was broken in two. It was so painful. I had to go lie down for a little while. And my back still aches today.

I want to get down to around 14 stone (or, for my dear American and Canadian friends, 196 pounds) As I weigh 17 stone now (14 pounds to the stone) I need to lose around 3 stone (or 42 pounds). Its not impossible, but it IS going to take a lot of work. And with my deporession getting worse again, it is going to be even harder.

Not doing bad

Well. I thought I would put on a lot of weight over Christmas. Especially as I drank so much on Christmas Day. But I didn't. In fact I lost 2lb. I am really pleased. Looks like I might be dropping down another clothes size very soon. I feel good about that.

Didn't bother

going to my slimming class tonight. I just felt so low, I couldn't face it. I know I should have signed on to Wendi Friesens webinar, but I couldn't manage that either.
Oh well, another week before I have to get weighed again. Maybe I can do something about my weight this week, to repair the damage I have already done.

I dread to think

how much weight I have put on this week. But, I'm not going to worry about it. I lost it before, and I can do it again. I just need to re-focus, and concentrate. If I can forget about christmas for a while I will be able to do that.

I have been feeling really bloated and uncomfortable this week. Prtly due, I am sure, to eating a now unaccustonmmed amount. But I have been feeling far worse then would account for. I just hope that life will now settle and I can get back to losing weight as I would like

ARRRRRRRRGH

Just weighed myself again. I have put on 3 lbs in the last two days. I am ashamed of myself. I am SO weak. All I want is to be thinner. I dont want to be waif like, or even stick thin. Just thinner! Why am I so weak I cant even do that!!!

I feel like a failure again

I just ate a whole pack of Jaffa Cakes. I dont know why. I just did. More pounds climbing on. Damn.

Another comparison.

Okay. 1 pic taken at least 5 yrs ago. 1 pic taken tonight. can you see a difference? I cant.

Did I get them all from here too?

All the google ads? Are they all gone? Good.